Monday, March 26, 2007

hmmm

there's an old wound in my left knee. got it with grace from a DTC bus driver, about four-five years back. makes it impossible for the knee to bend or to move. all i can do is to writhe in pain and wait for it to end.
for the last few days, m being constantly reminded of the last Vaishno Devi trip. at the end of the 14km climb, this old friend of mine resurfaced. and made it impossible to move any further. well, almost impossible.
with every step becoming difficult, accompanied with a silent groan, praying to see the Mother Goddess soon, one word with every effort kept me moving. one word.

why m being reminded of that time? why i m writing this? its related to the reasons i stopped blogging. and to the reasons i couldnt start it again.

some things gripped this heart, took hold of my ability to put words on paper. and i might have been busier than ever before with office & career issues.
might, 'cos nothing used to stop me from writing. but i did. for howsoever little time.

well, the trials are still not over. m being my own jury, in a case i've framed myself and i've to fight myself. against myself.
and as in that trip last time, there's only one word that keeps me moving. every day, every moment. every breath, every struggle. only one word, one name. dee.

6 comments:

Sophie said...

"my love what chord have you struck,
that i am still trembling?"

Deepti knows how to bring your song
back to life Adi.

Joined heart and soul. Forever.

Cuckoo said...

Hmmm..
How lucky yo are !

San said...

:D love makes the world go round ey

Aditi said...

aww... just aww
and that is a beautiful shot of dee
=)

Sugarlips said...

Now this is one hell of a pretty shot of Deepti :) Mash-allah Smoooch for her!

She will always be there for u :)
Lots of love to you guys!

Stay Beautiful...!

Tushar said...

hello dude...wassup....nicely written. after reading & understanding your blog writings and Dee's blog some inspiration has moved inside me too and reminded me of my early days. the result of which is this that i am sharing with you. maybe its full of mistakes but i know my frnds are there to correct me. love always play an important role in your life so do i realised after listening to a few words from my beloved...so here is what i have tried to put on papaer....

This one last time
All i want is to live by my own way,
Only this one last time,
Please let it be the way i want,
The way i am dreaming of ,
The way i am thinking to,
The way i am praying for,
Just let it be my way.

Because the way it is today,
Its not at all like my way,
It can't be any longer,
Its bringing me down everyday,
In my own eyes,
Breaking my heart in two,
Leaving my eyes crying,
Taking me to an end everyday.

I don't want to let me down like this,
Just only Once,
Just only twice,
Just only forever and always,
May i live my own life ?
At least this one last time...

Hope you all like it...pls let me know about your comments...

Luv
Tushar

dreamt before

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