Tuesday, November 14, 2006

absence makes the heart do strange things


hmmm. so the teacher manages a good job everytime. yes suparna, that's the muse :)

i was away. and came back yesterday. too tired, with a slightly damaged knee and a much calmer mind. it was an official trip, extended into a holiday, paying greetings to the Mother Goddess, residing up there in the hills.

from Kathua to Katra, to the Vaishno Devi Temple, back to Jammu & to Delhi. At last. one thing i realised quickly though. all those bollywood movies were not 'that' crap. you do happen to miss the one you love so much to see her face amongst strangers, to catch her glimpse at the most unlikeliest of places and to feel her presence almost everywhere you go. and then you smile, nod your head in disbelief and move on.

hmmm. its not everyday that dear boss catches me in a meeting, sporting a totally blank look and smiling all too often for comfort. its even better he didn't check the notes i was scribbling.

all through the journey; in cars, in trains, in markets, in temples, while meeting people, while leaving places, in hotel rooms, on open terraces, on window seats, with music beats, while climbing a mountain and while limping back to where it all started...all through the journey, just one thought, one desire, one silent dream from within...'wish she was here.'


life is not my own anymore. it has become something significant to be shared together. shared between two people, still a distance apart.

i was away and i came back yesterday. and i missed her. and i still wish she was there. and i wish she was here.

p.s. most of the pics we clicked there were deleted accidentally. so i might not be having much except the big textile mill in Kathua, where we went to as their advertising agency. Kathua, is a few hours away from Jammu, the winter capital of the northenmost state of Jammu & Kashmir. From Jammu, the devotees go to Katra, sort of a base camp for the climb to the hill-based shrine of Goddess, Shri Vaishno Devi. Sadly, it has become more of a tourist spot in recent years. The climb is of 14kms of metalled roads with all the facilities one usually requires. By the time i reached up, a long lost twich in the left knee locked it completely. We'd the most memorable of 'darshan' (glimpse) at the temple. Being a part of the morning puja is truly a unique memory. Mind you, not much people are fortunate enough for that. Returning, i had to trudge half way back before finding a horse. And it was not much of a comfort as well. The knee still aches. The memories, definitely will stay longer than the pain :) Jai Mata Di.

16 comments:

Vi said...

Perhaps on the next journey she will be...

adi said...

vi: perhaps :)

dwaipayan said...

adi,
now u know that movies are based on reality... join my gang, bro!!

dwaipayan said...

"I miss you even when you are with me"

sais suman chattopadhaya the great bengali singer!!

Revealed said...

Bollywood is real??? :O Serious??? You could knock me down with a feather right now. Hehe. No, honestly, happy for you. One of the first things that put a smile on my face today :).
Talking about absence doing strange things, sometimes when the person who's absent has been away too long you make up a person who was never the person who was actually absent. I know that's not how it was for u :p but just saying :D

nihar said...

Frankliy speakin adi,its strange n tough to believe those bollywood stories, bt if u r its hero, i might believe. hi hi;)
wel,welcome back adi, n seriously i wish tat in ur next journey she is vid u. AMEN

Aditi said...

aww at the fact seh wasnt there.. and u were seeing her everywhere..that is so sweet..
vaishnodevi wow.. i want to go there someday.. i bet it was exhillerating the morning aarti etc

San said...

I need to blogroll you, wach time i visit i miss about 6-7 posts :(

Sigma said...

Hoping that on your next journey your wish comes true :-)
I think I am adding a comment on one of your posts after quite some time. Just so you would not think otherwise, let me tell you I read all your posts, almost as soon as you published them. Blame it all on the google reader :-))

adi said...

dwai: remember, i said, "bollywood movies were not 'that' crap" :) m still skeptical sir.
and send me that song pls.

revealed: thanks for smiling. for me. for yourself. and as for the second part, yeah, i've done that too. but this time, its a bit different :)

nihar: wud u care to come along ;)

aditi: twin, wat can i say.
yes, u shud go there. but they say, the mother calls u herself. then only u can go :)
morning aarti was good. but close to 1.5hrs, a bit tiring also ;)

san: and i need more than 24hrs in a day. havent visited any of the blog friends for a long time :(

sigma: nahi nahi ma'm, i perfectly understand and duly acknowledge ur comments. even the invisible ones ;)

Anonymous said...

Hmmm. Wish i was there...

dwaipayan said...

too bad that i can't send u that song.. my friends has it on a cassate.. but I dnt think she got it on a cd... anyway,I'll ask her

nihar said...

I'd luv tooooooooo
if 2 ppl allow me;)
hi hi, both of them vil kill me,bt ny think for u adi;) nything

sophie said...

i am so happy Adi that you have
someone so lovely to miss -
it is a warm feeling and you carry
the love with you when you travel-

:)

Anonymous said...

Hmmmm
Adi is deep in love ;)
Oh boyyy so much love oozing out here.. I am so happy for you :D

Though comment rarely, I have started reading all your posts..

Delhi is my city.. so have a special feeling for it.

meet_me said...

" You do happen to miss the one you love so much to see her face amongst strangers, to catch her glimpse at the most unlikeliest of places and to feel her presence almost everywhere you go. and then you smile, nod your head in disbelief and move on. "

Believe me Adi, that happens to me every single day! And the whining of him being here ... "wish he was here" is more than a prayer .... if u know what i mean!

And regarding ur trip, Jai Mata Di!
I do pray earnestly that "She" be there on ur next trip with u....
God bless u ....

dreamt before

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