Monday, September 10, 2007

deja vu


a few nights ago, when i was walking back from the Paharganj side of the New Delhi Railway Station (NDLS) to the Ajmeri Gate side, i'd this notion of something filling up my head, someone i should listen to perhaps.

"you've been here before, walked the same dusty old bridge crossing the NDLS railway tracks. you were confused, losing the way that day also. and had resorted to walking. because walking gives you time, calms the mind, lets you think what to do." what was my mind telling me? or was it some higher power nurturing me with long-forgotten wisdom? what i needed to learn from that moment?

the answer came slowly. as i descended the bridge and trudged forward only on intuition as to where my destination, the metro station should be, i automatically solved an old problem of mine. despite being through the railway station umpteen times i was still confused with these two sides. and once or twice, i'd to actually retrace my steps or cancel my plans because of this. i'd landed in the same physical spot twice and went back, as i was afraid to explore, to move forward. now, i thought, "i'll never be confused or worried about this route or place. i've found my way."

and this is the lesson i learned those few nights ago.
"life takes you to places or situations again 'n again, to make you learn things from them, the lessons most needed for your growth. if not in the previous attempt, if you avoided it before, or stepped back, you'll eventually turn the same corner and will have to face the same situation. again. you've got to grow. and there's no other choice about it."

as i stand on the verge of one of the most important decisions in my life, something which i've been avoiding all through; as her words, her realities; our dreams (and not mirages) wait for resurrection, it is this sense of deja vu that i've to shake off, and act decisively.

its time.

21 comments:

Maddie said...

beautiful wisdom Adi :)

I send you warm hugs - a cup of
chai - for your brave journey.

(and Adi - your blog is so lovely-
very personable and inspiring -
and your princess looks
mischevious and pretty in that
photo)

Aditi said...

good luck and best wishes

Arti Honrao said...

"life takes you to places or situations again 'n again, to make you learn things from them, the lessons most needed for your growth. if not in the previous attempt, if you avoided it before, or stepped back, you'll eventually turn the same corner and will have to face the same situation. again. you've got to grow. and there's no other choice about it."


So true Adi ...
and you said it in simple words!


Wish you good luck in whatever you do. Remember, the universe is with you.



GBU
Arti

MM said...

Besties for what u r abt to do!! God bless!

-V-E-L-U-

adi said...

maddie: yes, i need those hugs and the cup of chai, especially from u. and this photograph is of the second time i met my princess, that is a memory of a lifetime :)

aditi: yes twin.

arti: haan, the universe is with me. god bless you too.

velu: gosh, where did you come from, where have you been? delhidreams misses you so much velu :) pls take care and yes, thanks for the wishes.

starry nights said...

I love the look of your blog and I was so happy to see you back. It is so true that we learn from making mistakes and taking the challenge.This is whaT MAKES US GROW. tAKE CARE aDI. WARM hUGGGGGGGGGGGGZ TO YOU AND dEE FROM ACROSS THE MILES.

Ben said...

yeah yeah!!! and one of the greatest aids you have at your side for this situation is awareness - that this situation IS happening, that you MUST act, and that even to not act would be a decision.

all the best!
Ben

Switchsky said...

Its funny how simple truths can be so loud when they are timely...and we listen.

mindinside said...

I wish the best luck with your choice and the goldest harvest for wot ur now cultivating

adi said...

starry: yes, from across those thousands of miles, your wishes did reach us, and perhaps now, i can say that i'm learning from the mistakes. yes, perhaps i'll will be able to build some delhidreams for dee :)

ben: awareness. hmmmm. rightly said, to be aware is half the job done. and then the real act begins. thansk for the wishes ben. i really appreciate you guys coming all through the world to wish me luck. thanks a ton.

switchsky: if we listen, that is. pls tc. m better.

Arch said...

Wow..lovely post Adi:-)

I love your blog header image...fantastic!
Arch

adi said...

mindslide: thanks buddy. to harvested dreams, i dare...

archana: thanks. your posts are almost addictive now :)

How do we know said...

Decide Well, and it is well that you have decided.
All the Very Best, because some decisions have to be taken again, afresh every morning of your life.

Thank you for all the warm wishes! :-)

MM said...

hey and ofcourse i wud be eternally grateful if u cud modify my link on ur blogroll!!

thx in advance!!
http://moviezmazaa.blogspot.com

:)

_V_E_L_U_

KAYLEE said...

GREAT LOVE THAT POST:)

Smita said...

That was lovely. It made me think about my life - why the bad was necessary.

Rationalization keeps us sane :)

adi said...

how do we know: :), to the many decisions we've to take

mm: hey, but moviemaza is not the blog i linked to na?
i demand my dear old velu's last blog!!!

kaylee: thanks. hope u r doing fine and take a little inspiration from these words and not make as many mistakes as me in life :)

smita: ji, rationalization, retrospection leads to redemption :) what do you say? anyways, welcome to delhidreams.

dharmabum said...

u want to act? ok. act.

- naseer shah in bombay boys :))

Sigma said...

Hmmm ... life is a great teacher, but demanding at the same time ... you always need to learn, and then learn some more .... and unerstand ....

Gillian @ Indigo Blue said...

Right you are. You will continue in circles until you face what you must face inevitably.
Face it bravely. What is the worst that could happen?
Thinking you can do this! Knowing actually.
xo
Blue

adi said...

dharma: yeah! :)

sigma: haan shalini. and the best part being, we can learn from others lessons, others mistakes also.

blue: with you, the word blue is not blue :) thanks gillian.

dreamt before

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