Friday, February 13, 2009

without expression

there was a time when i felt i could write poetry on anything and everything and with much ease. yes, i was that arrogant and am really really sorry for that. there was a time when i thought i could manage three different blogs, delhidreams, thinkpot and dillinama (my unborn photo blog). yes, i did have plans to start a photo blog too and that was the surprise i was talking to howdy and others.
not now.
:)
blogging is becoming increasingly difficult these days. even to talk about more mundane things like what i'm doing right now. for that twitter is easier. and for staying in touch, facebook is there.
my blogs were my expression. i think i've lost that faculty for the time being.
and it is a stupid cycle. the more i get bogged down with 'not writing a poem or a blog post' the more incapable i become.
i am on the net, it is my addiction. for five working days a week, till the time i don't have an internet connection at home (and i don't think dee will ever approve of that!) i am on the net, non-stop, reading, surfing, sharing, enjoying, whiling away my time. but all of that still is a passive experience.
what i'm missing is that creative spirit, that active moment of actually writing something of my own, of creating a new blog post or even taking a new photograph and wondering at the fragility of a creative moment. that internal urge is not manifestating itself well enough.
and god knows, i am dying slowly because of this. well, kinda.
anyways, have imported the complete thinkpot blog into delhidreams. will not start the new blog either.
is it just a temporary block?
i don't know.
feel like well, without words...
:(

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Alanis Morisette - What if God was one of us
via FoxyTunes

4 comments:

How do we know said...

:-) its a temporary thing... u know that already. And we look forward to ur blog posts, so they have to come.

It is true that you write really well, it is also true that its not abt ur ability, but abt a gift that was given to u. The gift will come back,there is no doubt abt that.

Happy Birthday Dee, belated!

Post the pics pls and the videos! :-)

oceanic mirages said...

howdy is right adi...
u just need to be more with urself than with the net ;-)
but seriously, i have felt it too n going thru the same phase, i just hope it passes n i belive it will.
amen.

dharmabum said...

am sure you'll be back with all the poetry soon!

adi said...

howdy, OM, dharma

thanks guys. i feel it was my arrogance that was restricting me. when i confessed, in front of u all, Mr. and Mrs. God were graceful enough to give me the 'gift' back :) thank you guys.

and OM, u r d soul. how can i be without words when u r here.

dreamt before

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