joining the resolution bandwagon

the first two days of the 'new' new year are coming to an end. not only is this the beginning of a new year but of a new decade as well. agreed, these divisions of time into moments, months, years, is just a facilitating tool and memory doesn't always follow its cold, logical precision, nevertheless by compartmentalizing our life in time, we can compare where we stand today in relation to our past(s).


normally, my personal favorites for this pensive task are the two days of my birthday and the festival of Diwali. the universally applicable new year resolutions mania doesn't affect me much :D this time though, i'm making an exception.


now, i want to start collecting, transcribing my memories, capturing the swirling sounds and images with my magic wand and storing them in clear glass vessels, one page at a time. the purpose is twofold: a written record of my experiences will help me gather my thoughts better, hopefully help me journey constructively towards my goals (not in the chaotic, haphazard manner i've all my life till now) and secondly, help sow the seeds of discipline and craft that i so desperately require to succeed as a writer.


hope i'll be able to stick to this resolution and bug you with more regular posts throughout the year :)

the Physical Mind

a piece of thought, from my diary

November 26, 2005 11:40pm
...i'm not a physical person, i never was. most of my existence revolves around the thought process, i live with & in my mind. if given a chance, i would like to do everything by sheer mindpower, without even lifting a finger.
no doubt, that also defines me as a lazy fella. lazy yes, invalid not.

i enjoy physical excursions. i've enjoyed playing cricket every single time, especially hitting my big bro all over the park - that happenned rarely though, but it was some celebration. i would like to go trekking every weekend & i dream of making mad passionate love to my love. but. the keyword here is 'dream', 'wish'.

i tend to think about a thing & enjoying it more than actually doing it. i derive all my pleasures by thought.

My Newest Resolution
"I'll never be ashamed of anything now"

That roughly transcribes to loving life fully, without any guilt factor. Jo ho gaya, so ho gaya, jo kaha, so kiya, usmein koi sharm nahin, total bindaas. period. thing is, will i be able to pull it off?
Just last to last sunday, i made a resolution never-ever to be late again. God knows, I'm reaching office, even later than my previous timings. That's what happens to my resolutions. All air, pof, whoosh....gone.
and new year is round the corner...
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November 27, 2005 12:10am